I'm still in debate on if I'm one of those people that believes in signs, but I do believe that everything happens for a reason and also that we can't just sit around and watch life pass us by. That being said, I feel like here recently there has been a lot of "signs" or suggestions hinting at me to do something big with my life.....like move to NYC for the fall. I know it is kinda crazy and why would you just move to NYC for the fall? First, I feel like if I don't do it soon, the opportunity and prime is going to pass me by. Second, I basically HAVE to be back in Fairbanks for next tax season due to some recent discoveries/situations so I can't move away forever....just yet. And third, I feel like the fall would be long enough to get my taste of a big city, meet some new people, and help me figure out what is next for me. So what better way to do that then to just do it!
So what is pushing me in that direction? Well, other than the fact I've been thinking about NYC for awhile, I recently read an old classmate's blog and she went on and on about how as we go through our quarter-life crisis (mid to late-twenties), we need to make big moves and suggested moving somewhere completely new and out of your comfort zone. She even specifically mentioned NYC and how much she loved being there. I also found this quote later that night:
Older, we must move, and stay, and move again, to keep our life-giving ties alive, for this movement is our fountain of age. And there's a freedom in realizing this, a new freedom to move or stay, new necessities and possibilities of choice. - Betty Friedan.
You can see where this got me thinking about freedom and age and moving on and then moving in general. So while two "signs" are small in the grand scheme of things, they seemed so big at the time that I couldn't help but think that it is time to do something. I mean, I have already talked about this with several of my friends, even looked at some photography classes, so if I'm gonna do it, now is the time. This is my life and I've got to go after these things or I will always live with a little regret of what could've been if I'd just done that....
Only time will tell if things will actually work out, but as for today, in this place, that's my plan. Tomorrow may paint a different picture, but for today I am ready and as the quote goes,
"Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here, we might as well dance!"
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Here we go now!
Okay, so today is Wednesday, but it also day 3 of INSANITY! Yes, the crazy workout dvds that look like you could never make it through them. Well, I'm here to say....you can make it through them, the hard part is making it through the rest of the day because you will be sore it places you didn't know even existed! I mean, seriously, my butt dimples hurt (that's for you Kirsty)! Anyways, with Sarah by my side, we are doing the damn thing and I WILL be lean and in amazing shape by this summer. Not to mention that on top of the Insanity, I am doing a bootcamp 3 mornings a week. Especially now that I got a little motivation....1. Lauren's wedding which I now have to get fitted for and 2. my trip to Hawaii in May to see Ashley and 3. the bootcamp instructor actually calls you if you don't show up!! Wooo hooo!!
Anything else going on besides working out and my new motivation? Nope, not really....just working day in and day out with the occasional break of freedom. I did have a LOT of fun for St. Paddy's. It was one of those nights where I just took it all in and was surrounded by all of my friends and it was just full of memories! AND good pics!!
Have I figured out my life or plans for after tax season? Nope. Sure haven't. Guess that will be my next task to strive to accomplish. Looking forward to summer though and with the snow melting and the temperatures staying above zero, we are on our way!!
Here's to working out, tanning the fat we do have (mom always sad tan fat is prettier than white fat), friends, and making memories....because we are only young once and we have to live in these moments so they don't pass us by leaving us with regrets of what could have been!!
Anything else going on besides working out and my new motivation? Nope, not really....just working day in and day out with the occasional break of freedom. I did have a LOT of fun for St. Paddy's. It was one of those nights where I just took it all in and was surrounded by all of my friends and it was just full of memories! AND good pics!!
Have I figured out my life or plans for after tax season? Nope. Sure haven't. Guess that will be my next task to strive to accomplish. Looking forward to summer though and with the snow melting and the temperatures staying above zero, we are on our way!!
Here's to working out, tanning the fat we do have (mom always sad tan fat is prettier than white fat), friends, and making memories....because we are only young once and we have to live in these moments so they don't pass us by leaving us with regrets of what could have been!!
Sunday, March 13, 2011
And we're off!
So today has been a day full of productivity and emotions. Filing 300 extensions, check. Getting a pedi, check. Some Barnes and Noble, check. Buying groceries, check. Tanning, check. Hitting the gym, CHECK!! I feel a hundred times better now that I've actually made that step so here's hoping I can just keep it up! I've already got a gym date Wednesday morning for a boot camp so this is me being optimistic that this is the day that will begin the change that I so very need.
Looking for answers...
Why do the questions we face in life seem so hard!? I feel like I face the same questions day after day after day and yet, no matter how often I play them out in my head or how long I think about them, at the end of the day I still don't have answers....
Do I stay in Fairbanks for the summer? Do I leave a job and friends I love just because I know that this isn't the place for me forever? Will I ever find someone to settle down with? Is it worth putting in so much effort to keep that person as a friend? Can a single girl and boy be "just" friends?
It is a constant battle for me figuring out what is next in my life, what decision is the best one. Where am I suppose to end up? Is it here or should I move to NYC, Texas, Nashville, Georgia, Timbucktoo!?! I know that in the end it will all work out exactly as it is suppose to, but for right now it just isn't fun trying to figure it all out. I can remember Lana telling me about two years ago that when we look back at this time in our life, it will seem like a distant memory and we will be able to laugh about it. So very true and I use that same line a lot of times as advice to my friends so I know that I will look back on this and laugh and how unstable and wavering I was.
Tonight I went to church and the message was about taking action and not waiting on someone else to be the person to take action. For example, when you look at something and you say "wow, someone should do something about that". Well, why don't I do something about that? What is stopping me from being THAT person?? The preacher spoke on how even though we go through some tough times and obstacles, times where we can't see how they will be of any use or lesson to us, that even those times God uses in our path. Those obstacles and trials and relationships and failures are all part of our final destination and that destination will be right where God had intented us to be all along. From that message I know that I need to give these questions up to God and not try to answer them because trying to figure out your life never works out. You can't plan out each day, you have to let life happen and enjoy each minute as you are in it. So all of that being said, I leave you with a quote I found today and also a song to download that really spoke to me at the end of the sermon. "Moving on is not about never looking back. It is taking a glance at yesterday and seeing how much you've grown since then" and download: Josh Wilson - "I Refuse"
Do I stay in Fairbanks for the summer? Do I leave a job and friends I love just because I know that this isn't the place for me forever? Will I ever find someone to settle down with? Is it worth putting in so much effort to keep that person as a friend? Can a single girl and boy be "just" friends?
It is a constant battle for me figuring out what is next in my life, what decision is the best one. Where am I suppose to end up? Is it here or should I move to NYC, Texas, Nashville, Georgia, Timbucktoo!?! I know that in the end it will all work out exactly as it is suppose to, but for right now it just isn't fun trying to figure it all out. I can remember Lana telling me about two years ago that when we look back at this time in our life, it will seem like a distant memory and we will be able to laugh about it. So very true and I use that same line a lot of times as advice to my friends so I know that I will look back on this and laugh and how unstable and wavering I was.
Tonight I went to church and the message was about taking action and not waiting on someone else to be the person to take action. For example, when you look at something and you say "wow, someone should do something about that". Well, why don't I do something about that? What is stopping me from being THAT person?? The preacher spoke on how even though we go through some tough times and obstacles, times where we can't see how they will be of any use or lesson to us, that even those times God uses in our path. Those obstacles and trials and relationships and failures are all part of our final destination and that destination will be right where God had intented us to be all along. From that message I know that I need to give these questions up to God and not try to answer them because trying to figure out your life never works out. You can't plan out each day, you have to let life happen and enjoy each minute as you are in it. So all of that being said, I leave you with a quote I found today and also a song to download that really spoke to me at the end of the sermon. "Moving on is not about never looking back. It is taking a glance at yesterday and seeing how much you've grown since then" and download: Josh Wilson - "I Refuse"
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