Looking for answers...

Why do the questions we face in life seem so hard!? I feel like I face the same questions day after day after day and yet, no matter how often I play them out in my head or how long I think about them, at the end of the day I still don't have answers....



Do I stay in Fairbanks for the summer? Do I leave a job and friends I love just because I know that this isn't the place for me forever? Will I ever find someone to settle down with? Is it worth putting in so much effort to keep that person as a friend? Can a single girl and boy be "just" friends?



It is a constant battle for me figuring out what is next in my life, what decision is the best one. Where am I suppose to end up? Is it here or should I move to NYC, Texas, Nashville, Georgia, Timbucktoo!?! I know that in the end it will all work out exactly as it is suppose to, but for right now it just isn't fun trying to figure it all out. I can remember Lana telling me about two years ago that when we look back at this time in our life, it will seem like a distant memory and we will be able to laugh about it. So very true and I use that same line a lot of times as advice to my friends so I know that I will look back on this and laugh and how unstable and wavering I was.

Tonight I went to church and the message was about taking action and not waiting on someone else to be the person to take action. For example, when you look at something and you say "wow, someone should do something about that". Well, why don't I do something about that? What is stopping me from being THAT person?? The preacher spoke on how even though we go through some tough times and obstacles, times where we can't see how they will be of any use or lesson to us, that even those times God uses in our path. Those obstacles and trials and relationships and failures are all part of our final destination and that destination will be right where God had intented us to be all along. From that message I know that I need to give these questions up to God and not try to answer them because trying to figure out your life never works out. You can't plan out each day, you have to let life happen and enjoy each minute as you are in it. So all of that being said, I leave you with a quote I found today and also a song to download that really spoke to me at the end of the sermon. "Moving on is not about never looking back. It is taking a glance at yesterday and seeing how much you've grown since then" and download: Josh Wilson - "I Refuse"